I’m feeling a bit tired and run down this morning and I know the reason why. I have been putting off making a phone call that I fear might cause me some stress and so I just haven’t called. Funny, no phone call has been made but I’m still feeling stress; I guess that decision didn't work out to well for me.

Actually I was “waiting” to get to a better feeling place before I made the call but then didn't end up doing anything to get me feeling better about the situation which just caused the stress and fear to continue. Oh, how I love the Law of Attraction, no vibration goes unmatched. You can’t fool the Universe.

It’s time for me to “take out the garbage” that’s causing me to feel fear and stress about making this call. By taking out the garbage I mean putting down on paper everything that I’m afraid might happen. Just the act of putting it on paper feels so good to me because it gets those fearful thoughts out of my mind and out on the paper and from there it becomes easy for me to pivot to better feeling thoughts. When I think good feeling thoughts that bring me a feeling of relief the Universe matches that with more things to feel good about.

I’ll let you know how it turns out.

UPDATE: I got myself to a good feeling place emotionally and then made the call. Initially things were going well until I felt the need to justify my decision. I realized that I didn't get clear about my intention for making the call in the first place and that made it easy for me to be pulled off track. I started to feel some negative emotion so I knew that whatever I was thinking/doing was taking me in the opposite direction of where I wanted to go. I ended the call very politely and said I would call the person back. I knew I needed to take a few minutes and get clear about what I was doing. What was happening in the phone conversation was a perfect match for how I was thinking. I had not really aligned with my decision and the person was just demonstrating that for me. Once I made my decision and lined up with it I called the person back. I stated exactly what I wanted with no hesitation and got it. All is well!

Still Going Strong

Believe it or not I am still clearing clutter from my house. I have made a lot of progress but the process still continues. It amazes me that one person can accumulate so much junk! I have found boxes that have never been opened since I moved into my house in 2001. At one point I just started laughing at the absurdity of it all.

I have junk piled up in almost every room in my house. My closet if full of clothes and shoes that I don't wear anymore. Why have I kept these things for so long? They no longer fit me so why hold on to them?

I have five years of paperwork that need to either be filed or shredded. I wonder why I didn't make the decision to keep or shred at the time I received the paperwork? Now I'm going through five years of paperwork and the majority of it are things I would have shredded to begin with. I guess at the time it was easier for me to put it in a box and deal with it later. Well, it's later and this is much more work than it needed to be. It would have been much easier to make a decision - yes I need this, it would be beneficial to keep or no this is not needed and keeping it would just take up space that could be used for something else. Doing so would have definitely made things easier.

I decided to sort out a little at a time as to not get too overwhelmed. I wanted to make sure that I made room for the things I decided to keep. I didn't want them going back into a box to be dealt with later. This has made for a slower but more thorough sort out.

One high point was finding some old journals. It's always so interesting to go back and read through old journals and notebooks. I found one from a few years back that listed several things I wanted to do like be a part of a spiritual group of like-minded people, be more authentic in my life, work in a non-structured work environment, etc. All I am happy to say are things I am currently doing. I am an organizer for a Law of Attraction group, I am living authentically, and I am beginning work as a freelance writer.

It's so nice to see my surroundings taking shape and my manifestations coming forward.