Boy have I felt off track lately.
I've been experiencing a lot of negativity regarding my finances and my job situation. Upon further reflection I've noticed that my thoughts have been focused on things not working out the way I want. Suffice it to say that this way of thinking is now causing me to experience situations that make me feel limited and restricted in what I feel I can do. I want to stay at home and work as a freelance writer but I'm afraid I won't have the financial resources to do it.
See, the thing is I love working from home. I love the freedom it brings. I can stay up all night writing if I want and I don't have to worry about going to work the next day. I can keep the creativity flowing for as long as I want. I can meet friends for lunch, go to yoga class during the day if I like, spend the day shopping and still write. I can write anywhere and I'm never without a notebook and at least half a dozen pens. I like to record my thoughts, feelings, fears, experiences, insights, etc. I love writing about my life and exploring my life questions; I gain so much clarity and inspiration by doing so. This is not to say that I can't work a regular job and write too but if we are talking about what I really want then that would be to work as a freelance writer.
So, I've got some fear that I won't be able to stay home and write full-time for much longer. That thought doesn't feel very good to me. I want to feel better about all of this but I also want whatever I do to feel real. What can I do to bring myself into closer vibrational alignment with what I want?
I can follow my heart which tells me to do what brings me the greatest joy and I can stay focused on what I want instead of what I don't want. I can relax and enjoy the fact that as of right now I do have the financial resources to work from home. And I can know that everything I desire will come to me in the perfect time as long as I keep myself in a state of allowing.
On second thought I think I just veered off my path and now I'm right on track again.
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
Still Going Strong
Believe it or not I am still clearing clutter from my house. I have made a lot of progress but the process still continues. It amazes me that one person can accumulate so much junk! I have found boxes that have never been opened since I moved into my house in 2001. At one point I just started laughing at the absurdity of it all.
I have junk piled up in almost every room in my house. My closet if full of clothes and shoes that I don't wear anymore. Why have I kept these things for so long? They no longer fit me so why hold on to them?
I have five years of paperwork that need to either be filed or shredded. I wonder why I didn't make the decision to keep or shred at the time I received the paperwork? Now I'm going through five years of paperwork and the majority of it are things I would have shredded to begin with. I guess at the time it was easier for me to put it in a box and deal with it later. Well, it's later and this is much more work than it needed to be. It would have been much easier to make a decision - yes I need this, it would be beneficial to keep or no this is not needed and keeping it would just take up space that could be used for something else. Doing so would have definitely made things easier.
I decided to sort out a little at a time as to not get too overwhelmed. I wanted to make sure that I made room for the things I decided to keep. I didn't want them going back into a box to be dealt with later. This has made for a slower but more thorough sort out.
One high point was finding some old journals. It's always so interesting to go back and read through old journals and notebooks. I found one from a few years back that listed several things I wanted to do like be a part of a spiritual group of like-minded people, be more authentic in my life, work in a non-structured work environment, etc. All I am happy to say are things I am currently doing. I am an organizer for a Law of Attraction group, I am living authentically, and I am beginning work as a freelance writer.
It's so nice to see my surroundings taking shape and my manifestations coming forward.
I have junk piled up in almost every room in my house. My closet if full of clothes and shoes that I don't wear anymore. Why have I kept these things for so long? They no longer fit me so why hold on to them?
I have five years of paperwork that need to either be filed or shredded. I wonder why I didn't make the decision to keep or shred at the time I received the paperwork? Now I'm going through five years of paperwork and the majority of it are things I would have shredded to begin with. I guess at the time it was easier for me to put it in a box and deal with it later. Well, it's later and this is much more work than it needed to be. It would have been much easier to make a decision - yes I need this, it would be beneficial to keep or no this is not needed and keeping it would just take up space that could be used for something else. Doing so would have definitely made things easier.
I decided to sort out a little at a time as to not get too overwhelmed. I wanted to make sure that I made room for the things I decided to keep. I didn't want them going back into a box to be dealt with later. This has made for a slower but more thorough sort out.
One high point was finding some old journals. It's always so interesting to go back and read through old journals and notebooks. I found one from a few years back that listed several things I wanted to do like be a part of a spiritual group of like-minded people, be more authentic in my life, work in a non-structured work environment, etc. All I am happy to say are things I am currently doing. I am an organizer for a Law of Attraction group, I am living authentically, and I am beginning work as a freelance writer.
It's so nice to see my surroundings taking shape and my manifestations coming forward.
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